Where Am I Going?

There has been enormous confusion with my blog, my website, trying to coordinate all the social networking sites, etc. I don't even want to waste space explaining it, but...I hope some of you find this blog and comment here and there. I don't know who is reading it, and I am not "with it" enough technologically to run all this without considerable help. I'm grateful to have some smart, enthusiastic friends who help out. After reposting my year-end blog from 2009 (due to needing to change hosting/access info), I thought about what I wanted to say now that 2010 is under way. How about the title of the first song on my debut CD (called CLOSE TO SOMETHING BEAUTIFUL), which is "Where Am I Going?" The CD is almost finished, and I have it sequenced the way I like, and I'm starting it off with this older song that I still relate to. It asks that universal question...where am I going? And I sure don't know. My adventure with Up in the Air has made it impossible to predict anything from here on out. I am anxious to get my CD out there, to reach more people, to keep writing new songs. It's an exciting time, but paradoxically there is a deep sort of loneliness that goes with it, an ongoing uncertainty. I miss my mom terribly, and I don't get to see most of my friends as often as I'd like. A different side of me has emerged in the past year, and I am trying to get to know that person. It's not always easy. But I do know that I want to play music, and affect people in a good way, and be able to pay my bills. All of those things are "up in the air," but I'm putting forth the effort. And I'm hoping this year will keep bringing me surprises, and showing me the road ahead. I don't know where it's going...but I'm in motion. And I feel e-motion as I follow this strange road...